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i wanted to make cookies tonight for matt. he's been really stressed out with school & stuff. tonight was his psychopharm class which has been driving him crazy, so i wanted to have cookies waiting for him when he got home.
but, of course, i burned them.
d called, and i completely forgot about what i was doing.
he does that to me.
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i've been sick for a week now. it's only been really really bad for the last 3 or 4 days, but all this time has really got me thinking.
i need to practice playing my keyboard. i always say that, but i never do it - i need to stop wasting time.
i need to start making clothes again - MY clothes, completely separate from work. i actually have this idea i'm really excited about for a new collection.
i've been super psychotic about my weight lately, and i'm well aware that losing 10 pounds in 1 week is wildly unhealthy, but i can't stop. it's something to focus on. i just need to be careful, and make sure not to hurt myself.
i'm also cutting myself off from this. i don't know for how long. i don't actually know if i'll even be back. (that's a lie - i can't stay away.) there are just too many things in my life right now that i need to focus on, and this is too much of a distraction.
i was fine.
anyway... that's all finished.
time to focus on what is.