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today at work i finally told them no.
i could hear them in the design studio having the most drawn out conversation, trying to figure out what to do. i was in my office, sketching away, when they said, "sarah, we need yr help. we're out of ideas."
i just answered, "i have my own problems."
it's a flaw of mine, i know, but i'm not much of a team player. i've realized that with this job. i do not function well as part of a design "team". i work by myself. i like being held responsible for what i do, and i like that if something is fucked up, the only person i have to blame is myself. this is ultimately because i am a control freak, and know that if i do everything myself it will be perfect.
the thing that drives me crazy is that they agonize over these decisions - they spend, literally, hours sitting at the table in the studio arguing over which shade of pink one of them should use in an embroidery. i'm sorry, but i'm very comfortable picking my own pink, thanks. and i really cannot handle long, drawn out pow-wows like these. i like to get right to it, find a solution, and be finished. none of this flitting around, changing our minds, looking thru magazines. fuck. i can't stand it.
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i made a decision today.
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i think i'm getting sick. at first i thought the weird headache was because i haven't really been eating, but then today i had a gnarly cough, so i guess i'm just getting a cold.
it feels really strange though. the bottom half of the back of my head feels numb. if that's possible.
i don't know.
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i've been wrapping christmas presents for the past 4 days. there is something about a wrapped package that i cannot get enough of.
when i worked at barnes & noble we had this awesome red wrapping paper, and everytime i bought myself something i would wrap it just so i could have a wrapped package, and then unwrap it later. i would sometimes leave a new cd wrapped for days just because i liked seeing a wrapped package on my desk.
i'm sure it seems a little wasteful, and okay, you're right - it is. but you know what? i'd still do it.
i really like the way presents look.
and this year, you, my dears, are getting some pretty ones.
